40 Day Yoga Challenge – Day 22

A breakthrough!!

For the first time in ages,A� I wrote a to-do list and I followed it!

The first thing on the list was meditate. Did that at around 9am after breakfast.A� Even the boyfriend joined in and sat beside me.A� Unfortunately there were a few technical hiccups which meant the Headspace App kept stopping.A� Still twenty minutes went past quickly enough; fifteen minutes on Headspace followed by five minutes on my own with a timer set. Job Done!

Next up, a couple of work tasks.A� Send an invoice, check a payment, write an email to a fitness challenge group I’m running and knock together a first draft of a marketing plan. Tick!

Blogging next. Wrote the adalat tv show online Pills 40 Day Yoga Challenge – Days 20 & 21 and started the 40 Day Yoga Challenge – Week 3 Review buy cytotec online canada non generic viagra buy .A� ON A ROLL!!

Was beginning to get a bit tight for time so I rescheduled my 5pm Skype call with a client for the next day and headed off to the 6pm Yin Yoga class (I was on time!).A� Popped home after class, wolfed down a bowl of muesli before heading back to the yoga studio for the Weekly Community Meeting.

In researching apathy vs contentment for my 40 Day Yoga Challenge – Days 20 & 21, I found a reference to laziness and lack of energy.A� I have been concerned that I’ve been feeling apathetic and lacking energy to get shit done.A� But before you think I’m some kind of Wonder Woman and hate me for it there are a few things that have been rolled over to the next day.A� There’s the painting of the door frame that needs to be started (it’s been waiting, sanded and prepped for about four months), I also have other writing to do.

“Most of us are always pushing ourselves to the limit, convincing ourselves that we will be content only when we are working our to-do list.” Baron Baptiste, “40 Days to personal revolution”, p.155.A� I was so disappointed when I read this.A� I was so pleased that for the first time in what feels like an eternity I had had a productive day and here was Baron Baptiste telling me that working off a to-do list is wrong!

STOP!!!!!!A� Did you see it?A� It took me a moment too.A� I reacted – negatively.

Let’s back up and look at the whole picture.A� I used to live by my to-do lists.A� They were epic, highly structured, colour coded, categorised according to deadline and project.A� I even created my own diary so that I could include my to-do lists.A� People would be in awe of my to-do lists and I often had requests for copies that others could use!A� A good day meant that I had powered through the list with nothing rolling over.A� Each item completed got a line confidently crossed through it and I would have triumphed once again!A� Type A or what?

Since starting my sabbatical 12 months ago I have rarely used a to-do list.A� I would halfheartedly scribble on the back of an envelope and then beat myself up at the end of the day when nothing had been accomplished.A� In the end I decided not to bother any more as it just invited a visit from my Black Dog.

But today felt different.A� The to-do list felt like an invitation to take a step towards change but only if I was ready.A� I felt no burning sense of frustration that I wasn’t ticking things off quickly.A� I had no nagging resentment towards myself when I rolled something over to the next day.A� It just was how it had to be, it’s how I was meant to be.A� It looks like I might have just discovered Law of Transformation: Relax with What Is.

Yoga = 1, Meditation = 2, Possible insight = 1. Cheap

Author: Sarah Keast

"I'm just a thumbprint on the side of a skyscraper of the world." Miles, Sideways (2004). My psych said that creative expression might help with my depression. I've tried writing about yoga but the fact that I can't touch my toes makes me feel like a fraud. Given that everything I plant dies it seems pointless writing about my gardening attempts. So here are the rantings of a self confessed over-achiever who has found herself disillusioned with the establishment and diagnosed with depression. Happy Days.

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