My Black Dog is off the leash.
It smells fear and it’s baying for blood.
I’ve decided to turn to the one thing that has saved my life in the past, hoping that I can be saved again (How yoga saved my life purchase hytrin vs flomax buy pills places to buy azithromycin zithromax ).
My return to Sydney in August 2011 didn’t go as smoothly as I would have liked.A� Any hope for a reconciliation with my husband were quickly dashed when he asked for a divorce and his lawyer began chasing 50% of my life.
I have always loved my work but getting bullied by a supervisor is never fun and when you begin to hate doing what normally brings you great joy, then it’s time to bow out.A� In 2012 I rejoined the mining industry but my timing was poor as the tide began to turn on the Australian mining boom.
In February 2013 I decided to take a sabbatical and pursue some personal goals.A� I went on a yoga pilgrimage to India, enrolled at uni, began renovations, started my own consulting business, dropped out of uni, did an 8 week body challenge, stopped renovating, ran a 12 week body challenge, started renovating again….. basically taking it easy so that I could work out what I really wanted to do!
I don’t know exactly when the symptoms began to reappear.A� Probably around the time of my divorce but they steadily grew in strength until getting out of bed took the same amount of effort as climbing Mt Everest.A� Weekly trips to a psychologist weren’t helping and I now have a unfilled prescription for anti-depressants sitting on my desk.
Over the past year, I’ve been learning more about my Black Dog.A� I also broke the news to my close friends and family which came as a shock to all.A� Showing them this Black Dog video was the easiest way to explain how it feels.A� Everyone has been wonderfully supportive although for some it’s a difficult subject as they don’t know how to handle it.A� I tell them that I am still the same person just with a Black Dog!
But on Friday 24th January my Black Dog broke it’s leash.A� Chased into a corner with no one to turn to I called Lifeline.A� Hearing my words reflected back to me was terrifying.A� “Lonely”, “isolated” and “unhappy” are not words that anyone likes to hear being used to describe them.A� But it’s true.
I made the promise to visit a new GP (mine has moved away), reach out to my psychologist and find a way to cope.A� Unfortunately the first one turned into a bit of a disaster because I can’t get depression because I teach yoga unisom price walmart – apparently!
So I’m reaching out to the local yoga community.A� I’ve signed up for a 40 day Yoga Challenge at Power Living Yoga here in Sydney, Australia.A� It will provide me with a structure around which I can begin to rebuild; five studio yoga classes per week, one home yoga practice per week, two daily meditations per week, a community meeting once a week and a book to guide my personal transformation.A� You can read about Baron Baptiste the founder of this program here.
I hope that yoga can save my life (again).